I'm not alright.
I've a person who keeps his cool very well.
Yet for the past 2 weeks,the same girl whom I've already decided to move on threatens the friendship again.She misunderstood and yet I have to stoop down to put down my humility to patch the friendship.2 days back,I asked her if she wants to talk tmr and she say she will give me an answer since she's she can't rmb if she has anything on tmr.
She's always angry at me and blaming me for the slightest thing.The reason why she is in this messed up r/s is because she told me off when I warned her not to get into a r/s with her current guy and it seem she's emotionally messed.What did I get when I warn her of him?2 months of cold war and cold replies.
So for the past 6 mnths,instead of mending the friendship,she would threaten to stop contact with me.
So wtf!She got into this r/s and now she know she has to break it off but she's blaming it on me for being lest understanding.
It makes no sense to say you know you're in a screwed up r/s,learnt tons of lesson from the past r/s but yet remaining in this screwed up r/s.
Yes I'm angry at her for various reason too.For hanging on to this fuk up arse hole bf when this selfish guy took advantage of her to hook her up after she broke up with her ex.
For the past 2 days,I've been very angry.For the things she did to me the past 8 mnths,breeding anger in me.Pointing a blade to our friendship and threatening to take away the friendship just because of her messed up emotions.
I'm feeling terrible,really angry every minute for the past 8 mnths and the anger jsut gotton worst these days.
I know I've to simmer and let the anger cool but I don't wish to let the anger die so cheaply.
Principles and doing the right thing is very important to me but now it seems,I'm thinking of going against what I stand for,to get attached and lead 2 girls who are intrested in me at the moment so as to breed more anger to keep the hate and hate her for making me feel this way and make this choice.
I don't know what to do.It feels terrible to hold on to anger yet if i cool down,It feels so cheap!