Someone has to cover all the expences of travelling and acommodation when volounteering... No, I don't play any instruments, I only compose on computer sometimes. But what I meant was i enjoy listening good music, interesting music, I like jazz festivals etc.
Orchestra? No. There is a chore, but I am bad singer. Besides, its only for singing, not interacting.
Its also very small college where I am in. And this is a small town.
Blanking means to ignore or avoid in certain way.
Another thing that bothers me is that maybe i chose the wrong profession to study. This would bring me secure future if I do well in studies, but in fact I feel more comfortable with painting. Currently I am thinking when I finish this school after two more years, I go to uni to study painting. Which is 3+3+3 years to get a doctors degree. I'd spend my whole life studying, practically.
There is a painting course in my school also. I got into there too, but chose another course where I am now. And she is in painting course. Thats two flies in one place that I want to be with...