Should I seriously be sick of my parents after only being back for about 5 days? (I've spent most of these 3 weeks with friends and at work)
I gotta come up with a plan. I gotta get out of here. The funny thing, is, it's the little things. I am sick of holding my laptop to the ceiling, trying to get a decent connection on the neighbor's internet. Just mother****ing ridiculous. I tried talking my parents into getting regular old high speed internet, and the bill would only be $10 more a month, which seems like a more logical idea than paying $40 for dialup, but I might as well talk to the ****ing wall because those jackasses don't understand a ****ing thing. No ****ing logic. Deedeedee!
That, and I am 19 years old, I use swear words when talking to my brother who is 18, and in the next room, my stupid bitch of a mother says "HEY WATCH YOUR MOUTH!" What the ****ing bloody hell? I am so pissed off that I am blaring a song by a trash band that goes "****YOU****YOU****YOU****YOU"
I installed a sliding lock and a deadbolt on my door, and while I was doing it, I had to listen to my mom piss and moan about how I am 'ruining' the door. It's a shitty door that isn't even made out of wood! And I have a perfectly good reason to install it: everybody in my family except my little sister who is 3 years old has stolen something from me; anywhere from $300 to video games to condoms to tools to expensive shaving cartridges. ****. I should have gotten 3 dead bolts.
I've been trying to save up my money so that I can get out of this hell hole. Can't do that when you have to pay car insurance, have to pay ridiculous amounts for gas ($4 dollars a gallon, shiiiiit) have a cell phone, and I don't even use it much. It's like I can't make any ****ing business with this shitty internet, I haven't been able to finish my current freelance because I have to go on a ****ing recon mission to get an internet signal. Can't get anywhere when I don't have any money to begin with... well $200 might get me somewhere, but how do I start a live when I get there? I have to put all my ****ing dreams and ideas on hold for about 30 years. What the ****?
I had to listen to my paranoid bitch mother sit there and whine about my 18 year old brother being out past midnight after getting his vehicle fixed. What the hell? He's 18 years old!!! I stay out past midnight all the time, get a ****ing grip dumbass. Also, she's pissed off that he smokes, and she smokes, and how ****ing hypocritical. This justifies tying her to a chair and slapping her with a big ol' carp.
You got nobody to talk to when your friends are miles away and the internet you're stealing doesn't stay connected long enough to login. It's so ****ing pathetic that I practically depend on this forum for my social needs. But you know what, that's why I haven't been on so much in the past.. I have friends, but now I can't talk to them. And in a position like this, it doesn't matter how good looking, how talented, what kind of person you are, how you look like, or anything, it's impossible to get a decent girlfriend.
My computer is so new, it's like dialup is nonexistent. No port! Wow, tell you something?
ARRRRRRRRRRRRGH
How the hell do you save up money in a position like this? What do I do?
I am going to get an apartment near my college as soon as I can afford it. Maybe then I can get decent Internet.