right this is my story and would like to know what you think i should do.
Im in love with the most beautiful girl iv ever met. We were living together for 3years but i was such a f**ker to to her, i use to cheat on her all the time, i know why i did this because i was only 21 at the time and wanted to have fun i know this is not a god reason it was just me at the time(a bit of a di*k).Two years ago in october we moved out from the place we had but were still seeing each other (well having sex and dating) but then in march last year she said she didn't want to see me any more and she was moving back to ireland (we lived in the uk and she moved there for me), iv never been so heart broken in all my life i felt like i just lost my best friend. We didn't see each other for about two months and in this time i did a hole lot of thinking and knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, when we met up in may i told her everything that happen in the last 3years about all the cheating and stuff, we agreed to get back together and see how thing go the only thing is she was going back to ireland in september so i said i would try and come with her but just couldn't get any work over there, i still went over every other weekend to see her and things have never been so good that i would have dun anything for her.
In january this year she was really depressed that she had to get time off from work, she was going to come over to my best mate party but she didn't feel up to it so i told her to stay there and rest and are say hi to everyone from her. When i got there my best mates girlfriend was trying to get me to pull her mate all night but i just didn't want to, then when we got to the club later in the night we just started kissing, don't know why i did this because i didn't even like her, anyway my girlfriend found out and said she still love me but think she could never trust me again.
How am i going to prove to her that i want to spend the rest of my life with her and that she can trust me.
she thinks we should split for 6months and see what happens after that but that would kill me.
Should i ask her to marry me, what should i do ?????
thank you for your time and sorry for the way i told the story