Is There Such A Thing As Being Too Confident?

[Mish]

No they're in reference to Spiel Mit Mir. tehehe ... I guess you haven't heard that one. It means 'play with me' and the lyrics are kind of ... potent, to say the least.

Heard it? I played it once. Together with "Du Hast".


Sleepy, tell me that your TV is on and you are watching Chaser's war on everything

[miSSleepy]

...uhhh... a guy with a funny looking hair-do?
well, I'm watching it now anyway...
Actually, see you on PM - Giga will chastise us for going OT

[Mish]

So Giga, because of your potential snapping me and sleepy are now forced to take our conversation in private

[anachronistic]

So Giga, because of your potential snapping me and sleepy are now forced to take our conversation in private

ah shut it, ya post whore.

[Gigabitch]

So Giga, because of your potential snapping me and sleepy are now forced to take our conversation in private

Oh, right, because I'm so mean like that...

My neuroses all pretty much lead back to a lack of ability to live up to my own potential and the harsh self-judgment that comes from my Inner Bitch.

I'm also just plain sucking with regard to finances lately. I need to do better about budgeting and paying attention to my work invoices so I have more money and spend it better. My boyfriend is vaguely aware of this circumstance, but has no idea that it keeps me awake at night.

I'm so good at appearing to be extremely high-functioning and adept (as a result of growing up in a very dysfunctional family), even when I feel like a total sham and have to go cry in the bathroom so no one sees.

I can't be the only person on this board who pretends to be totally together and just... isn't.

[misombra]

You want to feel better about it all giga, come over here and look at my desk...

[Junket]

I can't be the only person on this board who pretends to be totally together and just... isn't.

That was me last fall/winter.

I have a "wait and see", habit of wanting the worst to be over before I tell anybody. I'm trying to break that habit with Ames because it's not fair for her to learn of any bad happenings last minute or after the fact. It's hard for me to admit I'm having trouble handling something by myself, because I'm not the type to go begging for help if I think I can do it.

Having the emotional support however is priceless. Even if all they're doing is sayin' "It's gonna be fine." Thats really helped me alot.

[Gribble]

Giga, I hate to break this to you, but you're nothing special. Lots and lots of people are in a similar boat. You shouldn't be beating yourself up for being neurotic. You should be proud of yourself for having the strength to go on and wearing a brave face for everyone else.

I know, I know. That's incredibly male and contradicts every bit of womanly advice you've ever heard, but screw it. Grow some balls and be a man.

[misombra]

yeah! for real.

you should come to my house tonight. i'm having a halloween party.

[Junket]

I disagree. If you can't open yourself to your SO, then who can you open up to? I still put on my business face everywhere else, but I'm tellin' you, it really helps to know somebody that cares about you, knows you're going through some shit. In fact, for me, it's made the difference between me having a horrible day and a good day.

[DoesntMatter]

yeah! for real.

you should come to my house tonight. i'm having a halloween party.

Can I go misombra?!??

[Gigabitch]

Grow some balls and be a man.

Warning: PMS time is coming, and when it does, I'm going to come crying to YOU.

you should come to my house tonight. i'm having a halloween party.

I'll come as Gribble, with coconuts strapped on as my big, hairy balls.

(And if I didn't have Gigagirl tonight, I actually would.)

I disagree. If you can't open yourself to your SO, then who can you open up to?

But... what if it disgusts him?

[misombra]

of course. bring your crew. but i don't know, there may be a lot more brown people than you could handle lol.

[vashti]

What's your costume, sombra?

Giga- I don't consider those neuroses to be worthy of keeping to yourself. Insecurity - yes, but financial issues affect a whole household. The crying? Well, I guess that depends on how frequently is occurs and what you are crying about.

[Junket]

But... what if it disgusts him?

Then he is too self-centered to be in a relationship with you.

If all you're doing is fúckin' this guy, then I'd say keep it to yourself. But if you're actually expecting this to turn into something more, you going to have to develop a greater trust in each other. If it's something serious, you might want to consider counseling for some advice.

Did I ever tell you guys I actually went to a counselor from August to October? This helped me a lot. You get out what you put in.