sex takes atleast two people. if it took one, it'd be rape or masturbation. it's not your fault and you're not an asshole if she decides she wants to have sex with you/lies to you about it and goes through with it just to make you better.
why don't you just go for the 'i'm happy i am still a virgin' technique. how about the 'i'm glad i could save it for you technique' god damnit.
I never said i wasn't happy thats why i dont care to wait for her to be ready, i felt sad a long time ago because the topic came up and it was something stupid to have felt yes, but it doesn't affect me now.