Finalization

[Paranthropus]

I don't know how to put this. You are a very thoughtful, sensitive, and kind person. And everything you are feeling is completely natural. I have been in your shoes before and I know how hard it can be to break the cycle of feelings toward someone you feel is outside the norm/extra-special. But let me tell you from experience that it is not a healthy cycle to be trapped in. When the feelings aren't returned it only leaves you feeling disappointed, rejected, and unappreciated. Not sure how to counsel you exactly on this one, but would highly recommend that you turn your energies toward something else that is more tangible or at hand. Like your music...or your family and friends...or some other sort of activity or aspiration. I am not going to develop feelings for one you no matter how much you might wish it. Therefore please refrain from writing me so often. Thanks very much.
All the best,
Jessica

Also "please refrain from writing me so often..........does that mean I should just leave her alone forever or could we be friends in the future." There were other messages and stuff that lead up to this but I need to know what you think of this message from her.

Would you possibly date someone that was 6 years younger than you?

Thanks,

[vashti]

Sorry, my friend. She's not interested. Right now, you have her sympathy, but if you continue to contact her, it will quickly turn to anger and disgust. You'd better leave her alone and stop contacting her.

[Mathias]

Sorry, my friend. She's not interested. Right now, you have her sympathy, but if you continue to contact her, it will quickly turn to anger and disgust. You'd better leave her alone and stop contacting her.

Listen to vashti. She knows stuff.

[CAM]

Is over. No more contact.

Would I date someone six years younger than me? Yes, but at my age that is okay

[clynn]

Leave her alone.

Don't contact her until at least 5 years have passed.

I think she wrote a very thoughtful, lovely letter. It is very, very kind of her. And truthful. Believe and trust in what she has written in her letter and follow her suggestions, like putting your energies into music or your family or other friends.

All the best. It really sucks to love someone who doesn't love you back. But it happens to the best of us. How you deal with it is what matters most of all, you will see.

[Gigabitch]

Clearly, she's a very kind person who is handling this situation as gently as she possibly can. Your writing to her makes her uncomfortable. I think you should send her a very short and to-the-point message that says (in essence), "Thank you for being so nice about it. I won't write you any more. I'm not going to get completely mental about this."

[Paranthropus]

These are the message I gave her. Any feedback would be nice thanks. I just want to know how to become better.

I can’t seem to shake this feeling. No matter how hard I try I keep on thinking about you. Few days ago I lost 2 thousand dollars at the post office and you know what I really didn’t care. The only thing I really wanted back was our time in class, to see you smile and laugh and to hear your voice. Even when I try to keep myself busy with work and friends I constantly drift off only to find myself thinking about you. I don’t even get a break when I am asleep lol. I think I lost count of the number of times I dreamed of you. Two weeks ago it happened 3 consecutive nights. I don’t even know how that is possible. Don’t worry all of them are rated G. The one I had yesterday if I can remember it was this: I walked in the room and you had fallen asleep on the couch. I put a blanket on you because it magically appeared some how in my hands and then I went into another room. I believe it ended like that or I just can’t remember it. I just wish these dreams would last forever because they felt so real. It sucks when it ends and you wake up, lying in bed staring at the wall and realizing it never happened. Though I do admit I don’t mind them at all, I rather dream of you and wake up disappointed as opposed to having not of dreamt of you. I don’t know what your feeling right now besides the songs played on your profile. I need to hear from you if possible so that I may put my mind at ease, selfish as it does seem, maybe I should just suck it up like every other guy or woman. I caused you enough trouble and if I really did care about you I would leave you alone. To me that would be the most reasonable approach. I know you are trying to be cautious in not hurting my feelings but I need to know the truth even if it hurts. One would think something like this would dissipate over time, like a crush or a short fleeing attraction, but I don’t think it will. During that final exam, I finished within 15-20 minutes but I couldn’t force myself to leave. I eventually did and it was so hard to walk out those doors because that meant I would never see you again. I am at my wits end on how to deal with this situation. Maybe I should submit my case to a magazine anonymously and see what they say lol.

[Paranthropus]

Is it possible to be so lovely and fair
A complexion that seemingly few share
With a beautiful smile so bright
Illuminates the skies of the beguiled night

Your eyes autumn green and gray
Foreshadows what man shall do today
For they contain the vastness of the sea
Where every navigator truly wishes to be

Your loving heart pure and infallible
Has yet to surface as a tangible
No matter how far fetched it may seem
One always has eternity to dream

As this short poem begins to end
I leave you with one thought
That will seemingly make one backwardly bend
What Rhymes with Jessica?!?!?

[Paranthropus]

"I ran from elephants, survived malaria, slept in a tent for 13 months (Oh My God) through thunderstorms and with occasional army ant and mouse invasions among other things."

You’re scaring me! Survived malaria (there are several types)……, Do you know what I am going to do, I am going to write a pamphlet or manual on the types of diseases or sicknesses in Africa, from snakes, bugs, animals, or whatever. I’ll write down the symptoms and treatments. I’ll do an illustration along with text on how to put in a intravenous line. I’ll teach you how to treat broken bones or any other thing I can think of that is of use. Once I work in the hospital I can specially order antibiotics and medication for you, free of charge of course : ), it will be like a birthday present! Nurses in hospitals are basically medics; the ones that work in ICU (Intense Critical Unit) are the same as army medics/field medics). I could teach you a lot with the current knowledge I have right now and in the future. Just be safe………please



"Mondika has flat terrain but is characterized by a combination of dense thickets, mixed forest, and swamp forest, over which the gorillas can cover large distances in a relatively short period of time."

Cover large distances in a relatively short period of time………………sounds exciting lol, I’ll try not to pee my pants if I ever see a huge gorilla wanting to rip off my head : )



“You must be in excellent physical condition.”
I think that should be no problem for you

"Additionally, the site is very remote and therefore you must be accustomed to the rigors of living far away from civilization (e.g. sleeping in tent, bucket bathing, eating boring food, limited or no access to email or phone, etc)"

Bucket Bathing, Awesome! I did that in China for a couple days…..actually it sucked…..a lot!
Boring food, I could only imagine.
No email access…..or phone, that’s a bit scary.


Be sure to tell me when you next trip is, so I can have it ready for you by then!!!!!!
I have so much more to say but I bet your busy with your research paper and stuff, so I’ll end it here or else you’ll be reading this until next year!

I've been contacting her through myspace, and did she just say it would be best if you wouldn't message me anymore as opposed to not so often?

Does this mean that being friends is an option in a few years from now? She is 27 and I am 20, she was my TA, teachers assistant : X, All logic points to just drop it but I am curious to know lol. Thanks, I actually been handling this pretty well. It really hasn't hampered my lifestyle.

[vashti]

Since you are asking, those messages will make you appear pathetic and creepy to her. Get a hold of yourself and understand: she does NOT reciprocate your feelings. No one wants messages like this from someone they are not interested in.

[Ellynn]

I know how it is to feel something for someone who just doesn't feel the same. It hurts and it sucks. Sometimes it doesn't make sense to YOU. But, the point is you tried. She was very kind to write you a letter and was VERY clear about not feeling the same about you. (Most people don't even get that!) So, now its just time to move on.