I am so tempted to reach out to her, even in a form of a letter or something, but I know that the moment I do that she'll be stepping all over my heart again. I keep thinking that maybe she realized by now what she lost but she's just thinks that she lost me and that it's too late to build everything back up, which is the reason I would want to reach out to her first.
But then again I know that if I do that she'll think I'm desperate and will treat me even worse then before. This mental abuse has got to stop somehere, correct me if I'm wrong?