im going to copy over a msn(AIM alternative FYI) i had with female friend of mine a few hours after i found out...
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Tyler - Me
Ashley - recent EX
Haley - the comforting female friend
Sebo - ass wipe/former jackass friend
ross johnson - a friend of mine who threw the party
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Tyler says:
haley
Haley* says:
hey
Haley* says:
whats up
Tyler says:
you havent heard?
Haley* says:
no
Tyler says:
short - long - or really god damn long
Haley* says:
go for any length your willing to tell
Haley* says:
im all ears
Haley* says:
or eyes rather
Tyler says:
nice, ill set some background story then
Haley* says:
lol
Tyler says:
saturday night ashley asked me if i wanted to pick her up and take her to sebos, to hang out. well we get there and alls fine and dandy ect. sebo says, hey all the forensics team people (well most of them) are at ross johnsons, celebrating their victory. i, not wanting to seem like im more pissed than i already am say sure.
Tyler says:
we get there, around 10 people are there. sebo is sulking in a chair in the corner of the room, and ashley goes to "comfort him" she spends 70% of the party with him, 20-25% at the party and less than 5% actually hanging out with me
Tyler says:
we leave around 12-12:30. i take her home, when we pull into the drive way we start making out ect saying good bye. i stop for a second and say, "you know sebo is crazy about you..." and she says, AND I QUOTE, "sebo knows that all we will *ever* be is friends, you have nothing to worry about."
Tyler says:
i hear that, i feel much better. pretty good, i figured he was jsut having some trouble and she was doing a nice thing, HA! well sunday we dont really do anything. same story with monday. this morrning i come to pick her up...
Tyler says:
we get to school roughly 15 minutes early, she seemed really distant the whole ride. she looks at me and, i cant remember word for word, the whole feeling inside and the first few words she said just let me know inside what was going to happen and the rest was tuned out really.
Tyler says:
basically she says she has feeling for another guy. i almost know its sebo before i ask who it is. sadly the only time in my life i can actually read a mind is when it ruins my day.
Haley* says:
im so sorry tyler
Tyler says:
she lied to me, saturday ngiht while we made out, not even 3 days prior...we walk into school, and im about 10 feet behind her. as we enter through the back parking lot, i walk outside and throw up. go home, and nearly flip out
Tyler says:
i come back to school at her request, she doesnt say a word to me expect when i stop her at our locker and say, "saturday night, when i asked you if there was anything between you and sebo, did you knowingly lie to my face?" and she says yes. the word kille dme on the inside and i was ar to distracted with the fear of the answer i already knew to hear the tone.
Tyler says:
during fourth block i check out, i came back to talk to her. didnt see that happening until after school. i sit in the back parking lot for 90-120 minutes until school got out, i didnt feel like going anywhere and ill i wanted to do was to talk to her. she checked out and didnt tell me
Tyler says:
thats the short version
Haley* says:
im sorry tyler
Tyler says:
yeah, but please dont go around telling other people im talking behind her back because thats the last thing i want
Haley* says:
i wontr i promise
Tyler says:
i still like her, which is why im devestated by this and i dont want and bad feelings
Haley* says:
yea
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basically thats the story in a nut shell,ive done a ton for this girl (snuck out of school when she was sick to visit her, brought her hot coffee when she had to ref a soccer game in 30-40 degree weather and gave her my jacket, snuck into her house during lunch to throw 2 dozen roses around her room, and several other thinigs.
i just dont know what to do, i do know that sebo is one of the intellectual types and that it likely wont last long (i hope).
send me advice!