Hello new to the forum!
My story goes like this, when i was 11 i moved to a new house, i made friends and 1 of my mates had a sister who was a couple of years younger. She fancied me for ages, all through my teenage years she fancied and i never really fancied her until i was 20 and she had grown up. Then i wanted to be with her she was the only girl for me but i kept messing it up and everybody told her i just wanted to use her, which i didn't.
Anyway we did get together nearly 3 years ago and we had the best time togther i was falling in love so fast. The honeymoon period was amazing. Then i started to become jealous over nothing really just because i'm insecure, and we had a few arguments.
Last June we got engage and i felt like the happiest and luckiest man alive, but the arguments were still there. Anyway last december she said she didn't feel the same way about me anymore so she dumped me. I couldn't cope i was so down, i was depressed. We kept on talking because it was near to christmas and my birthday and we exchanged gifts but then it was all over until January and she said she wanted to try again but take it slow. I was so happy again because i told her i would change no more being jealous. We didn't get back together but seen each other a few times a week until 2nd March when she dumped me for good. She gave me the engagement ring back last tuesday and i'm so upset.
I think about her all the time and still love her. I know how much i love her now and i still want her back but i know its over. I just don't know how to cope with it. Things don't seem right without her and i feel lonely. I want to phone her everyday and its a struggle not to. I know its over but i keep on thinking about us getting back together which is wrong but it would make me happy if we did.
Any Help because i don't know what to do!