ok, lil update.....we finished our talk, and I'll sum it up.....have a look and say what you think, here's our chat:
she says:
what happened?
she:
I think I've got a clue
Me:
you happened
she says:
ok
Me:
hahahahaha.......I can already picture the innocent smile you must be wearing now.......
she:
gulp
she:
there aren't a lot of moments when i don't know what to say
me:
iI'm not one to act on impulse that much as you've probably noticed.....but.....I dont know where all these feelings of the past week came from since I already know you for some time. But since last week I simply couldn't distinguish up from down
me:
and im not someone who lets himself be lead by emotions usually, I need to find rational explanations for everything. The problem is I can't find any for last week and am pretty lost.
she:
well, don't worry, most men are over me pretty fast
she:
you'll see the light soon
me:
right
she:
so you'll be over me soon
she:
or that's what I have made myself believe
me:
you need to do something on you self-image or find better excuses for saying: sorry I don't feel the same
she:
I haven't said I don't feel the same.
me:
my turn to be flabbergasted
she says:
I think we doth might feel the same, but you know what my life is like. I'm sorry to say I've lost most of my faith in those kind of things.
we talked some more, and now I truly dont know what to do anymore.....we're now having some meaningless banter.....but should I act, or give her some space. Does she really feel the same or is she just trying to spare me......I'm lost lol
On really romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion...