Over the last month or so Im really getting dragged down with home life and work life
Ive had two fall outs with one of my Parents.
She is doin ecdl, and is was tryin 2 do the test and was asking why it wasnt displaying summit. there was a screen too which was teling her, as part of the test 2do something, and i kept telling her its not doing it because your not doing as it says, ithink she expected it 2 just appear.
Anyway she must have been frustrated and sick, and in the end just told me 2 just piss off n go away. normally id just accept it and walk away but i told her that i hadnt dont anything+didnt deserve that.she knows i dont like bad language directed at me in that way, not sure what was said after sumit bout givin me a clip n id said id clip her back n i went on about how i hadnt deserved anything of that and hadnt done anything wrong. so that was that. never spoke all night, and nobody.she was out the next evening, and the day after said have a took a vote of silence, i said no and eventually conversations flowed. So I had backed down and didnt get my apology
I went on holiday for a week, ididnt see my parents that day as it was late and went to work the next morning. I got a txt from her asking if I had ordered a dvd for her friend at work, which i had done so before my holiday but it was faulty and never got round to ordering a replacement.
I texted her and said i hadnt.
She rang me at work asking why i hadnt done it and that i couldnt get it in time for christmas. she said she was sick of me letting her down with dvds etc and that she was pissed off it with it, then she said bye and put the phone down. This was my first contact with her after my weeks holiday and it totally ruined my week away+wasted my money.
Im totally sick of home life following this but cant afford to buy a place of my own.
Last night i stayed at work late, then went home, went through the front door and straight to my room so ive still not seen or spoken to anyone. I was unwell anyway but nobody would have known.
I know christmas will be bad and probably ruined now anyway. theres always ppl falling out, and its not our fave time of year to begin with.
Im tired of work all day, then im tired of home life and so dont get a break.
Im left to feel like the bad guy and dont want to see them.
Ive just been to egypt for a week, a place which ppl think is dangerous, you would think they would be pleased with my safe return, instead of an telling me off without asking about the holiday.
It really drags me down.