Hi. Thx for reading this. I my confused since some weeks. Actually it's about two girls...1 I meeting since some months and who is really great , although she optically perhaps not the stunner. But she has a good heart, thinks also about having family and we have good time. We really intimate together too.
We met some months ago.
But why I m confused is because some girl who was in love with me some years ago ( who back then said I shall think about a relationship, she may be the love of my life)...but where I was "blind" and wanted to start (after a burnout, what I didn't communicate to her)....slowly...first friendship and so on....she dint want that and then after some confused months the contact broke up ( I thought she didn't want it because she only wanted a relationship)
It was sad but I tried to look elsewhere on a woman but left confused because of a lot of work and low social contacts I didn't met really one. The girl back then and I had such a really spherical connection...like we do know for years even we didn't.
OK...she then had a boyfriend want I realized and some weeks ago wrote me she ll have a baby and has one now.
This is great but also I feel like I missed the chance back then.
I always wanted to have a family and she was a potential one. I wasn't ready or didn't see the potential then and so I lost her and the chance.
So this all surrounds my thought now and influences bad the current relationship.
I m like comparing the 2 girls ...that the one had more friends or nicer family or I could talk better to her and so on...
It's not fair for the current girl and I hope I can fix this, but need advice how to go on and to forget the other girl ( who is mom nlw with another guy, and where I back then was too blind)
Please ..any hints or even an prayer? Thx