Hi, I've been with my boyfriend now for 16 months. We love each other and when we got together we had a strong connection. I'm 45 and he's 32 and we live together. I have recently found out that I can no longer have children but before that we were trying. It has broken my heart even though I knew maybe it was too late for me. I know he wants kids and I feel bad. I said to him he can go because I felt selfish. He said he loves me and doesn't want to leave. He has before now punched doors and walls when he has been angry and tired which I'm obviously not happy with. He also ignores me a lot and doesn't want to go out alone that much with me anymore. I'm not an old 45 year old and I keep myself fit. I feel like I'm an embarrassment and he looks at other girls when were out. He thinks more of his friends I feel. I used to feel so special. The thing is we are also tied together financially at the moment too. Am I just a convenience now?