OK, this is a hard topic for me to post, because I don't really know which way I stand on it. But I want you guys to know I am not trolling or making things up here, I just want to vent a little and get some advice on what to do.
What happened to me was that my aunt (she is 41) had come over to visit one day, and for some reason, I am really,really attracted to her. When she was at my house, I tried to avoid her and was in my room doing homework. But, she came up to me in my room and basically started hugging and kissing me which really got me aroused. Instead of doing something I would regret, I went to the bathroom and masturbated. Unfortunately, I didn't realize during this that my aunt was standing outside the bathroom listening.
When I came outside, my aunt had this weird look on her face and asked me what I was doing (and who I was thinking about) in the bathroom in a sly tone. Then she asked if I wanted her to come with me into bathroom. I really was surprised and shocked to hear this from her. Can someone please explain what she meant ? I don't trust myself here because I am attracted to her, but was my aunt actually coming on to me ? What exactly did she mean when she asked to come into the bathroom with me ?
If she was coming on to me, it makes things really hard for me. I am very attracted to her and would happily have intimate relations with her, but I also know it is wrong. At the same time, I am having a lot of difficulties getting a girlfriend because I keep getting turned down. One girl even told me it was because I am not that good looking. When stuff like this happens, I tend to go back to thinking about my aunt, who it seems happens to also share my affection. So, it seems like I am stuck in a vicious cycle. How can I escape it ?