I've been with my boyfriend for 5 months now, and up until last night, we hadn't said the 'L' word yet. I knew that I was ready to say it, but I know these things take him a long time, so I was waiting. It got to the point where I felt like I was going to burst if I didn't say anything, so I hinted a few times towards it, and he just said he "felt strongly" for me. Last night I was at a party, and I talked to my (female) friend about the fact that I love my bf but feel depressed that he's not on the same page. She talked to him about it and he said that he did love me, but was waiting for the right time to tell me. So last night he told me, and it was amazing, but I feel like
A. My friend talking to him might have made him feel pushed
B. Me hinting might have made him feel pushed
He said this morning that he knew I was waiting for him to say it.. so now I feel like a desperate loser because it meant a lot to me to know that he was on the same page as me, but he already knew that I love him because I'd made it obvious so it didn't seem as much of a special moment to him feeling gutted and stupid